Friday, October 7, 2011

I'm Finding it Difficult to Write These Days

I’m finding it difficult to write these days. I’m frightened and angry at what’s going on in the world. I feel inadequate and disenfranchised. To get out from under the heels of the banks and corporations is going to take a huge and horrible effort that the comfortable don’t want to join in. I’m afraid that they will stand back and do nothing if the police and armies try to halt the voices of dissent. I hate to see that racism is alive and thriving and yet the other side seems not to know that they are racist. There is no honesty about it, which makes it slippery and hard to catch and kill.

Right now I really don’t care about anyone’s sexual pleasure, not even mine. Love, it turns out, does not cure everything and is not being embraced by vast numbers in the world. Frankly, I am tired of hearing every wet and sweaty detail of someone’s sex life which will turn to bitter odes of regret and anger when sweetie pie moves on to the next conquest.

Yes, I have my ducks in a row and I’m comfortable, but I never thought that in my retirement years that I would be considered an enemy who deserves any suffering that comes my way, but less so because I’m white. Gee, thanks, you Nazi, Ku Klux Klan reject. I want to enjoy my Golden Years, but that’s not going to happen when I am surrounded by the vultures of the corporate world, trying to think of every possible way to grab my last nickel and leave me in their wake.

It just seems indulgent to write about the personal and not about the revolution or the grief and anger that is feeding it. I thought that I would be gazing at my own naval and coming up with a song for all the abandoned women of America, whining about some man or men, but now, all I can think about is the children and the lost futures they are facing and I have to get my head out of my crotch for once.

Which is why I’m not writing much these days.


  1. Report from the Front

    from movie- "The Last Tree Standing" on ELF, the Earth Liberation Front

    Consumer America
    Is destroying the world
    And the planet!

    What part of that
    Don't you

    Is for suckers!" *
    Stand up- fight back.

    A pollyannish view
    Of social change- that
    It can occur through
    Politics or by
    Working within the system?

    It won't.
    You can watch police
    Clubbing protestors
    all day long

    And Daniel
    ELF hero-
    Is labeled a "terrorist"
    For burning SUVs?

    By the real terrorists-
    He gets to spend his sentence
    in what the BOP calls a
    Communications Management Unit;
    The real terrorists give him
    A Terrorism enhancement" sentence.
    Does our government speak English?

    If he's a terrorist
    What about BP?
    What about Wall St.?

    And the snitch with a wire?
    He gets no time.

    But Daniel
    Is actually freer
    Than state's attorney,
    Police detective,
    Lumber company ceo
    And/or snitches-
    Hope he knows it.

    * Call and response line from poet Ron Williams at the "Occupy DC" demo- 10/6

  2. why not just get involved in the movement? who cares abt writing poetry- and yet- activism inspires me to write-even elegies- u cld give it a try?- dave anonymous eberhardt

  3. I'll be doing as much as I can with the fatigue of MS. Rather leaves me here at the computer, but I am getting involved...and writing a bit.