The Dreaded “F” Word

I am the Queen of

The Dreaded “F” Word.

The word no one

Ever wants to hear spoken

About themselves.

I’ve avoided facing

The Dreaded “F” Word

For so long and now

it’s in my face.

I tell myself that

I have money

And insurance.

The Dreaded “F” Word

Does not apply to me.

But I will never be loved.

Never see a play produced.

I have no house or  children.

I have Multiple Sclerosis

Getting worse every year.

I can no longer avoid

The “Dreaded ‘F’ Word.”

Cover your ears,

Remove the children

From the room.

I have to say it.

I have to face it.

And say it loud.

Failure.

I am a Failure.

There.

I said it.

Maybe now

I can change it

To Hope.