A Night of Restless Dreams
I was returned to high school but suddenly
And as a surprise
To my aged and retired self.
But now I had to drive to John Marshall
When I got the word
I had been transferred to another school
This time I had to look up the name on the internet
For both Kathy and me
Who had graduated in the nineteen sixties
I had to get onto a roaring super highway
And let GPS
Tell me the location amidst highway carnage
And then the dream changed to one of you
But well and happy
Walking with a young lady heavy with your child
You were your same age, but hair short
And in ironed shirt
A beautiful smile, glowing with prosperity
While I was the one now newly lost
But in a subway
That was a puzzling labyrinth of tunnels
And I was struggling to be happy for you
And both your babies
The woman and your incipient child
Jealousy stripped me of any thought of joy
Why wasn’t it me?
Why did the she look so right by your side?
I awoke to our plodding realities of loss
Me of youth and work
You of nearly everything that life can offer.
Let my dream come true that you have everything
I need nothing more
Than to see your children running to your arms.